If you do a quick google search of ‘At least it’s not cancer’ you will find a range of blog posts, articles, memes etc. by people with chronic illness who have been on the receiving end of this phrase.
It is frequently a platitude offered when people are uncomfortable with the experiences of someone living with chronic illness. It’s an attempt to ‘lighten’ a mood or moment.
The problem is that it belittles the experience of living with chronic illness (as well as those dealing with cancer). While I am grateful not to have a life-threatening condition, the reality is that I will have the issues I experience forever. There is no potential cure.
People understand cancer but rarely understand invisible fluctuating chronic conditions. They believe a cancer diagnosis. They question diagnoses such as ‘chronic pain/fatigue/fibromyalgia’ (as examples).
The blame for not recovering or managing better is placed with the individual. Consequently their (our) experiences are underestimated, belittled and doubted.
My recent surgery* has heightened my awareness of this.
Even if my operation had been a standard procedure, it would still be a big deal to go through. Therefore to have it belittled or overlooked is very hard to experience.
There is an expectation that such a common procedure is easy to deal with for the individual. When it isn’t a standard version of that procedure this may be overlooked because it’s not life threatening and there’s a projected recovery timeframe.
Exceptions to these things are often played down and overlooked. It is the individual failing to recover, or seeking sympathy, after-all.
Am I failing because the breaks in my femur are not healing? No. This is not my fault. However, I am conscious that rather than continuing on that projected recovery pathway, I feel that in fact I am struggling increasingly with every week that passes.
This is because I am trying to work again, along with everything else in life like feeding cats and doing laundry. I rely on supermarket deliveries for shopping and ready meals (when I do bother to eat something besides crisps and chocolate). I struggle to make it into work and leave the house only for this purpose. The exhaustion, tiredness and pain are overwhelming at times. In truth, I have never felt more disabled in my life.
However, the expectation is that things will be getting easier for me. The pain less, mobility greater, etc. So people stop asking how I am, offering support. The comments of ‘it will get easier’ have run dry. Yet I need them more than ever.
*I had complex revision hip replacement surgery. It entailed a pelvic osteotomy to lower my left hip by an inch, regaining height lost 15 yrs ago and putting mechanics back to how they ought to have been (meaning my body is adjusting to changes of mechanics which is proving tricky). It also entailed multiple breaks to the femur in order to extract the femoral shaft. It was wired together to secure the new hip in place. I lost a couple of litres of blood during the 5 hr op and it was described by staff as ‘a hell of an op’. Almost 4 months on I am still not supposed to be putting weight through the leg for fear that the breaks will fracture as they’re not healing. The surgeon commented that there is a need to consider the next 20-30 years rather than the more immediate future.